it all comes together

Many years ago I've written these poems trying to describe my inner world. Back then I had two major pursuit for my life, one is to find my true calling and the other was to find true love.

Interesting how things happen in life....as a few weeks ago I have found both pursuits at once, as they are one the same.

I have found my Twin Flame!

I never knew such thing existed but does it make so much sense now? oh yess it does!

Interesting, at the time of writing these poems I was 2 months away from meeting him. We met somewhere between 11/2011 - 01/2012.

We enchanted each-other from the first moment but only recently began communicating daily.

Only last week, after  some  intense messaging we came to the realization that we are one and the same. We woke each-other up.. Every aspect of my past connected, it all made sense. I realised  that everything that I had experienced up to that point was all on purpose. It was all navigating me helping me, guiding me to where I wished to be from the start. All that I ever thought about how reality should be is indeed the truth. The realisation of this carries immense joy and love that remains in my being.

I now know that spirit is always nudging us toward a blissful reality! I must say it is the smoothest operator and does not make mistake!

This  knowledge now fills me with overwhelming joy and never have I ever felt so loved!

At this point my poems also came alive and seemed to describe events that are happening today!

Don't get me wrong my reality has not turned into a fairytale. I don't spend my day with collecting flowers from a field, nor do we  lullaby holding hands . Instead this is the beginning of the inner work boot camp to cleanse all that does not belong.

It is now time to censure all false beliefs, purge of negativities, and throw out any futile baggage. These all restrict our pure divine self and it is now time to live our pure potential!

It is intense, it is challenging and in the same time its mind blowing

The only way forward is to actually apply, live and practice all that I ever have learned.

The perplexity of  challenges increased, while the available tools have been also upgraded.

I used to blindly  believe but now I KNOW and FEEL that things ARE perfect for right now and will always will be.

as it is

I'm a dreamer

don't wake me up

Birthday poem

Here and now
and every day on
pandemic laughter
prosperous dreams shall manifest
your way, into your life

Blessings shall cascade
inspiration through your veins
raging abundance shall
timely overflow
harmonious energies shall
dwell in your heart
always, from here and now
you shall see the light

Wading Waters

My paintbrush is soaking with your scent

You tore the chains of my weathered door of love

My violin plays only one tune

Yearning of the heart

I tossed all my weeds but

Your tiny flowers also got caught
Withering wasted under the sun,

The fresh mountain breeze sown those seeds again

Brewed stronger all that has gone

You were the first I wished uncaptured

Forbade my snake eyes to seduce

Ordered my tails to swirl afar

I rather know you endless

Letting be what dreams may come

Purely

Imperfections shadow real beauty

Pretentious pride protects the mind

Jealous judgements choke all knowledge

Will I defy, will I defy

The pure stands tall naked

Sweet and innocent like a child

Refuses cautious control

What will I find, what will I find

The brave lowers gorging guard
Speaks with sensitive silence

Trust that everything will be

Perfectly fine, perfectly fine

Letter to Grandma

If I could spend one more day with you

I would fall in your arms, kissing your cheeks like I used to

I would ask you how is heaven, do you still see grandpa?

Would ask you to sing me songs of the golden river,

touch my lips with glorious fruit

share your wisdom, hopes and wonder

and tell me that in time we’ll meet again.

I remember your smile, how you looked at me with awe.

Times when you scrubbed me shiny in the bath.

Always teaching me, your ever forgiving unconditional love.

I’ll wait till you visit again during the night in my sleep

I know you are always watching...

at times I can feel your heart being proud.

I am sending you my hugs and kisses

And Hallelujah to God

Workshop me

Sarah  http://sarahjmartin.blogspot.com/ and I set a task to each write a poem with the intriguing title of Workshop me. Well here it is...

Level me with your genuine reaction

Chisel my edges with open honest love

Glue my shattered heart together

Paint my sorrows bright as a spark

Chainsaw my luxurious lousy laze

Drill my mind to find more doors

Hammer me out of curbing comfort

Shovel the bricks of my broken walls

Polish my hopes to new existence

Nail my discipline close to earth

Axe my insecurities to dainty pieces

Clamp my dreams to giving birth

You can workshop me anyway to help

But never put me on the shelf

Function

Holding the lantern

Adventuring the symphonic jungle of life

Glance under every rock

Observe each sound

Smell the purple breeze

Touch colors of a rainbow

Sense hidden delicate beauty

Taste all I can find

Stumble through challenges

Glide across lucid haze

Frazzle fluffy fear
Expand a brilliant brain

Holding the lantern that shines through my heart

Embrace each experience

Breathe and enjoy life

Cipher

Beneath the surface

I always knew

Probably it is true

Openly I now embrace

Love and pain in perfect grace

Adventuring on mystic lands

Rejoice, I'm in divine hands

The intruder

The shadow of shifty doubt

sneaks in through the cracks,

Tirelessly suffocating dreams,

nailing them tight to comfort,

till desires devastated into thin air
like vigor that fades away

from poison saturated ground.

My friend, I can gauge your presence

I welcome you with laughter,

 hear your voice faint away

will catch you lurking every time

then watch you disappear.

The crossing

A present alluring in layers of silk
My being bounces with joy
can hardly bide to see
What kind of treasure waiting for me
How did it manifest my way?

As I swift the layers away
I begin to realize
the silhouette of my purest desire
the one I questioned, if it was to perish in waste
Who is the sender of such precious grace?

I freeze, my faint heart cringes,
I wonder should I leave it stow
Preserve it in my memory as splendid
without causing any harm
How am I defied with such a perfect charm?

But deep down I know
I must be true to myself and continue to grow
I boldly obey the quest
and go with the flow
Who tries to bless me this way?

Suddenly I look around
Know, I’m at the gate
where reality mystifies
guiding me to have faith
that it is all perfect right now
I can also clearly see that
Heaven organized the gift and the sender was me!

A door of many

It is hard to see a blessing buried in the midst of pain

It is difficult to harvest gifts of a storm

But

by welcoming all that seems unfair,

letting go of judgement,
by accepting the surroundings

You may just be handed the key

that opens any door blocking your way.



A moment of eternity

If I just observe my surroundings, I see such a divine creation where every moment is a meaningful, perfectly and individually created guidance toward my deepest, most beautiful desire to live life.

When I stop thinking and actually feel how I feel, instead of thinking how I feel, I begin to notice and more and more appreciate every moment I experience to the fullest.

Complex simplicity of Love

I want to play in the sandpit till we collapse from laughter
I want to sit with you in intimate calm silence for days
I want us to fight with passion followed by understanding and forgiveness
I want our erotic sensual connection to fly us into euphoric, dazed wonderland
I want to immerse in exchanging thoughts, further discovering the world
I want us to stand guarding each other in the middle of the square while rocks are being thrown
I want to embrace all that you are, know and feel that you do the same
I want to evolve and grow together toward our dreams, share and experience all that is called life unconditionally
In years to come I want to feel the same excitement when we met the first time
Every day I want to be thankful and treasure what we have and possibly
make it last forever.

To all the beautiful people in my life

I just want you to know...

I feel blessed that our path have crossed and I am overjoyed reflecting on our memories.
If we ever shared a moment, exchanged a smile or laughter, if we ever traded secrets,
if we ever spent time together in calm silence or cried on each other’s shoulder YOU are one of these people.
I want you to know that I am overwhelmed by the unique beauty you each have brought in my life.
I am grateful for all that I have learnt from you.
I wish you all could see each of your own superior quality I know in you.
I hope that you have the courage to follow your dreams and live an abundant life filled with LOVE.
Thank you
Agnes